Two eleven in the morning, I haven't titled this post.
Its a relatively long weekend, but it seems like there's a lot to cram in.

I'm formatting my old com and installing Ubuntu on it. Why? So whoever picks it up can run the com without hassle and without access to all my files. I'm a nice person *cue angelic chorus bright white light and amaaazing halo* :D

Okay holy moment over.

I wanna get down to writing again; I haven't had the time to just sit and do it in so long, I'm afraid I've lost it. Once upon a time all I had to do was... well... nothing, and ideas would flood my mind and I'd to sieve through them and then my fingers would magically know which words to pen and when to paragraph.

But now the space in my head feels... (yeah my head is full of space) thick. Like I gotta push through to get ideas, but when I finally get a hold of something I find its not as awesome as I'd hoped it was.

I might be overreacting. It'd be such an irony if I wrote about my disappearing could've-had-'em' skillz and it takes the form of something that I think I can no longer achieve. That was poorly phrased, but you get it.

An idea met me while I was hurriedly showering a coupla days back. About why we're afraid of - haha - ghosts and stuff, and it extended to other things. I'll work on that by the time I book in on Monday.

Did I also ever say this? I feel like I'm being pulled in so many directions by all my commitments, the people who need me, and all the things I want to do. But instead of me breaking, I'm afraid I'll pull back so hard that everything comes crashing together. Actually I'm not afraid hahah. It just sounded like an interesting concept. Well what would happen if things came together? Is it even possible? That, my friend, is up to YOU to find out. Hahahah yes YOU. I'm not making any sense now, am I?

That must mean its time to go. Of late mine eyes have been dry or sth. But I like the feeling, as though my eyes are puffy maybe with eyebags. Feels like a macho thing to me hahaha. So I'll hold back on the eyedrops for now heh.

There is nothing to fear, go out and be awesome. The world needs awesome people, so whataya waiting for!





Because just because

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