I think I'm getting back my old voice. My tone and thone and this and that has changed since the ole days of blogging. I think its returning to that old school style. Yep. Whatever that means.

My back is being a toot again, but I still love it. Back I'll always love you, you know that. I went to another chinese doctor yesterday and he says its a nerve thing. I kinda found it hard to believe and a part of me refused to accept that the man may after all know exactly what's going on with ma back without doing much. I mean he didn't ask me to bend or this or that or check here or there. The only question was did you fall down? Then it was 'okay sit down face the wall and loosen your pants.'

Hehehe.

No really I had to loosen my pants cos he had to massage my entire lower back. It didn't take very long, in fact it was super speedy. Then he pasted two herb things there.

And today there was still some discomfort and I expressed my doubt then my nenek told me a story of how my grandfather used to have pains in his right knee. It got so bad once that he couldn't walk, yet the doctor said there's nothing, here have some more painkillers. Went to a chinese doctor and the good man said twas a nerve in his back pressing against his bone. He was adviced to go for surgery and that fixed it.

So I realized yeah I should really have faith in the pros. There's a lot that I don't know and something might seem obvious to me but if I knew then I'd realize it'd be foolish to think of it in the same way.... geedit? I think the phrasing was wooooobly but HECK I'm done with that phrase.

Its also got me kinda sad again cos there I was recovering, getting back to exercising. I even made a workout for Ramadhan, and plus my diet it I was sure it will bring awsm results. Then the pain again... I can't wait to get back in the gym, I can't wait to get big and there things conveniently come by and get in my way.

But then I think and I realize this is not a bad thing. If anything, this is a test from Allah. To test my patience, my faith in Him for giving me challenges when I don't know why I'm getting them. And it may have been a coincidence or otherwise that I happened to watch a video of this famous professor who converted to Islam; in the video he explained that after he converted he lost his wife, house and other house. They left him because he embraced Islam. And Subhanallah the strength that man displayed was so wowwish, he could talk about it to everyone. It was a reminder to me that what I'm facing is small. In fact I don't have to look far. I know some of my close friends have or are still experiencing hardships or challenges in their lives, some of which might even overwhelm me. But there they are, still strong. So there is no excuse for me to get upset.

There is a blessing in everything, and maybe its so damn well disguised that you can't see it BUT that doesn't mean it isn't there aha aha am I right am I right can I get a- nvm.

Hasheeeeeshhhhh I forgot the other thing I wanted to write about. THIS HAPPENS A LOT! DAMMIT!

Okay maybe this is it, I can't remember. I had the idea last night to make a list of things I need fixed/solved. In no apparent order:

New speakers

New monitor

More oomph for ma pc. Graphics card or processor or both or what?

My back. lol.

My teeth! They're senget. I think I wanna get braces or sth eventually. Not sure now.

My Muskles. They need to be moored, like more-ed. Yeah like that.

MY PHONE!!!

MY PHONE. WHY PHONE WHY, WHAT DID I EVER DO TO YOU. I woke up one day and it was all 'Storage card not working'. After one million resets it worked for a few days, then again. It has been unworking since. Went to Sim Lim yesterday to see if they could do anything about it, but nup. My only choice now is the LG service centre.

Oh sheesh yalllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll I wanna sigh but I'm holding it back.

I'm writing again. Starting NOW. As in other stuff. Like on a word processor. I just. Could yo- SHH. LEAVE IT. JUST DROP IT OKAY.

Back pain back again hahlolz