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Ok so my blogpost counter isn't faulty, its now one up from before.

I had and have so much to say, I wonder if I can make it out of this with enough time to sleep!

So I've decided I won't elaborate where not necessary, and I'll be very brief. I just wanna get my points out. I realized I've said these things in the past: lemme mention it quickly now and I'll further expound upon it in the future.

I don't think I've kept to my words. So whatever, I'll just say it and leave it.

1 - Don't change religion to fit the people. So what if our youth think differently or what. Yes you need new approaches, but be careful. For example, you want the youth to spend more time at the mosque. Fine, but don't be so desperate in trying to achieve that goal that you don't closely check your means. Personally I think its silly if you succeed in getting them to do what you want but the time spent there is not productive, or they pick up the 'wrong' kinda behaviour. Like pakcik/wak2 behaviour. Its just dumb.

And there's a letter waiting to be written.

2 - I don't get clubbing and clubs. Like yeah okay I can let them exist, but then I wanna ask who allowed for them to be built. And this question applies to all other questionable establishments: did the general public get a say in the approval stage?

Araknow but I have a feeling that if we take a vote, you'll find that a lotta people will respond in the negative when you ask them things like:

-Do you like the idea of a drunk/sober guy/girl grinding and rubbing him/herself against your daughter/son/sister/brother/whatever.

-Are you totally cool with that person getting wasted and having God knows what happen to them.

-What do they gain? What is 'fun'? What??

Yeah the younger people will be cool with the idea, at least a healthy number I suppose. Maybe overall we'll discover that its a close fight, that it is not a majority that doesn't support the idea, but maybe a half or a wow-just-a-difference-of-three-and-a-half-people scenario.

These places cause trouble, spoil our youth, people, society. So just one question/thing: wtf.

3 - I was watching how ppl spend their time and money and shit. Really? That's what people do to have fun? Its like they don't realize they've got a lotta time, but somehow they find they must fill it doing stupid and maybe nonproductive things, that might only sound feasible in the short term. Some don't even meet that standard! What's up with people? Happy to just abandon responsibility for entertainment and pleasure instead. You could be doing something good but no you gotta enjoy.

Don't slog everyday in preparation for The Future. Every second that passes is the future, and The Frickin Future is rushing at you at the alarming speed of 1s/s (or sometimes faster), so find a balance, DAMMIT. Enjoy but don't shoot yourself in the foot.

Okay this maybe I think I'll elaborate further next time. The last two paragraphs seem totally insufficient and handicapped in their ability to get my message across. Another time then.

Now for my disappointment in NS. I don't mean to brag or what, but in all honesty I was a kilat trainee. I wasn't the only one, mind you, there were a coupla people I looked up to and whom everyone else did as well, but look where that brought us: nowhere. I didn't get to cross over to RCC (which I'm glad for now btw, and I think I have Zeb Bhai to thank for it, if what he told me was really true). No one whom we thought deserving got the awards they supposedly deserved. Politics, shit, wayang, and at the end of the fricking day we might realize that we have just half-wasted (if lucky) two years. Not everyone gets the intended experience!

Its a shoddy system. It could work, its a good idea, but the execution must be polished. They've already gone so far to give us this standard of training and opportunity to go out on the frontline, so I don't see why the SYSTEM is still LIKE THIS.

And I still wish I was at a station, turning out for fires and RTAs and shit. I really want the experience, but signing on is too much of a burden. I want to do something else with my life.

Life.

I should be doing the things needed to push myself up, but haven't really. Maybe that's why my weeks end with me feeling sad and slow and dissatisfied. All that stops today. I'm gonna write more and finish what I've started. There's no Tomorrow for it to happen, everything starts today. I gotta rule the world or at least have some significant place in the world before I'm thirty something. Doing it then is still okay, but its always better to start young. Also a lot more impressive, cos you'd expect your average world ruler to be middle-aged or maybe some white-haired fatty.

I'm never gonna get fat. I GIVE MY WORD.

Oh I made the Raw Foods Witch's brownies, they're awesome. Go check out her website and start being awesomer.

Now on to fawazstudy. Got some things that need to be said over there.

Brown Eeeeeee's

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Still at 77 posts?!

I can blog while people are watching, its not such a big deal, even when SOME PEOPLE over my shoulder read every word out like some douchebag. I can, but its difficult and I'd rather not. Its like taking a dump, yaknow. I'd prefer it if you let me do it behind closed doors, and if you wanna see it afterwards then go ahead, be my guest. You get the whole concept, right?

I think this back pain of mine has been really good for me. If you don't already know, lemme bring you up to speed:

About 7 months ago during my trainee days, there was a week where I my back felt uncomfortable. It didn't hurt and I had full mobility, but twas really uncomfortable. So I went for acupuncture and was immediately relieved.
Fast forward to about a month ago, when I resumed gymming and was seeing improvements in my lifts. Again, my back started feeling uncomfortable, but instead of resting it I kept going. I went on and on and even when it started hurting just a liiiiiitle I paid no heed. And then came real stupidity on my part; there was one day when I walked into the gym literally thinking shit this is a bad idea, my back feels horrible. But I lifted anyway! I did squats, warmed up and found it super hard to lift, went to just a bit less than my working weight, did a little and found it really hard.
Reduced the weight and tried again!
And again!
I was struggling and my back hurt but NO I didn't stop! Instead...
I tried to do rows!!! Twas really light but I was struggling like mad to even unrack the bar. On one of the reps I felt something pop in my back but I did two more anyway. Racked the weight then...
Did machine presses!
Thinking back, I was a mega big DUMBASS. I don't know why. I guess this happens in life sometimes.
And then I finally gave up, after a half hour of hurting myself, and by that time I could hardly bend.

I went for a few sessions of Chinese point therapy. Regained mobility but discomfort retained. Rested for awhile, still uncomfortable. Then one day I bent down to look at a newspaper and SHNAP painnnnnnnn. Nearly immobile for awhile, managed to lie down for a bit and hey presto! back to normal. Then again, yesterday, bent down to wear my boot and SHNAP painnnnnnn.

So I went to the hospital, and all I got was muscle relaxants, painkillers and anti gastric shtuff. No bone specialist or whatever (cos I explained how I felt my feet were uneven, and that after long periods of standing or wtv my one foot feels really yeowchy.), just try and come back if it doesn't get better.

Today my grand uncle brought me to see one Encik Hamzah, who massages your feet.

Today was good.

After an hour and a half, I was relieved of my discomfort, my feet were burning, he'd explained to me which point was what, how what pressing meant what, discovered my history of childhood asthma, told correctly that my left shoulder was tight, that I get numbness easily, I have low blood, and lotsa stuff. This man does reflexology on the feet, cos there's like 67 pressure points. He also does siram and might cocok elsewhere if necessary, but its almost all in the feet.

They're still burning a little btw lol. Its from both the oil he used and the increased circulation.

I need to and want to sleep now.

No salt many clamps

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